Silly Bee - go sting someone dead.

Mrs. Shaws class

 Hot Dog..Missy, the little weasel

The "I'm-sitting-in-the-wrong-spot-at-my-graduation" look.

Mother's Day is going to be hard this year.

Today has been a hard day.
When do you think a baby becomes yours?

Tips to Happiness

I think that infertility is a qualified challenge to say that I have figured out some tips to being happy.  I do have to add that I am on medication for my anxiety which helps, so use this as a disclaimer that there are chemical imbalances that sometimes need to be fixed.  With that being said, here is MY list of how I stay happy in the face of challenge and change.  In no particular order.

1. Enjoy today:
I have wasted a lot of time hoping for the future when all my dreams would come true.  Well, dreams don't come true all at once, so enjoy each mini dream that comes true one at a time.  Even if that dream is that you could afford your groceries this month or that you lost that one pound.

2. God's Plan:
There is peace in knowing that things happen for a reason.  Accepting this and not spending too much time trying to figure it out is helpful to me.  With that said, I try to be worthy of His blessings which brings its own level of happiness.

3. Don't Dwell:
Dwelling on the things that make me upset only makes things worse.  I think there should be moderation in "letting it out".  Let it out once if you have to, but then forget it and move on.  One of the best things my husband said when we were first married when I would try to vent was "Maybe you should just chill out about it".

4. Laugh:
Don't let criticism override.  Instead of making fun of dumb things, laugh at the stupidity and enjoy it.  Commercials are dumb, laugh.  People do dumb things, laugh.  YOU do dumb things, laugh. 

5. Give:
Give compliments, give smiles.  Making other people happy makes me happier.  Give flowers, give presents for no reason.  Remind people you are thinking of them. 

6. Be healthy:
There is a lot to be said about keeping yourself in shape.  I don't run everyday, but I run...often.  I don't cut out sugar, but I try to add fruits and veggies.  Portion sizes are important.  I saw yes to any opportunities that might make me healthier.  They come all the time and just saying yes when they do come will keep you on your toes.  

7. De-stress:
I went back to school and picked a job that was much less stressful.  I have more time, I have more energy, even if it is not a top-paying job....quality of life is important.


I could go on and on, but for now, cheers to a happier life.

Negative

I woke up this morning not sure when I was supposed to get my blood test done I got a call from the Dr. saying I go today!  I too off my lunch and rushed over got it done and waited.  An hour or so later I found out that the results were negative :(.  I was really brave while I was still at school, about 5 minutes.  I fought as hard as I could on the drive home and let myself cry when I got home and told Andrew.  He was supportive and we started planning what to do next.  We are going to try again.  We are going to get the money wherever we can and go crazy.  We will just do what we can and move forward. 

I'm off to get a Dr. Pepper. Over and Out

April

I should wait until later this week to add a post because I will have news of whether we are pregnant or not.  For the record I don't really feel like I have any pregnancy symptoms.  My behind is very sore from the constant progesterone shot that I get every night, but other than that I feel pretty normal.  I feel that I have a lot of support from friends and family which is so nice.  I realize that my struggle isn't just mine, but other people are affected by this too and they want things to work out.  I am prayerful and still feel optimistic, but also peaceful that Heavenly Father is very much in control and knows what I am going through and has a plan for me.  I say peaceful and the words come out sincerely...meaning I'm not faking the emotion because I know it's true, but I feel blessed to have the actual emotion to go with the words :D.

This has been a busy week.  I was asked to be the director of a road show project with my ward and film a 7-8 minute video of the brass plates.  It has been a fun project and has run very smoothly.  I have our editing guy working on the finishing touches as we speak and will have it ready by Saturday.  I'm looking forward to see what he comes up with.  I also was assigned to take care of decorations for a baby shower, had a lot of homework catch-up to take care of, and more stuff.

We have had some fun times hanging out with our new friends Tom and Mataya.  We get along really well and enjoy spending time with them.  They are not LDS and are asking a lot of questions.  It is fun to talk with them and clarify the things that we believe in with them.  We don't try to push anything on them, but we have breached the subject with them so they feel comfortable enough to ask us things if they want. I hope that I don't say anything incorrect.  I pray that I can say the right things. :)  I enjoy the opportunity though.

This week I learned that I won't be staying at the same school this week.  I am moving to Birch Creek Elementary.  I was actually kind of excited about this because that is the school that the kids in my neighborhood go to.  It was sad to tell my other teachers at North Park though, :C.  I am not happy to leave, but I look forward to going.  I have been studying the pictures I have taken of my classroom and trying to figure out how I want to decorate and set things up. I think it may be more necessary for me to learn spanish at this school too.  I will have to work on that.  The good news is that I get paid and insurance over the summer so I can relax :D.